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@Ahhh Girl, I enjoyed every word of the report! You’ve done a wonderful job.

I hope things work out for you, @Linde. I’m sure you will manage things on your own eventually. It’s always only the beginning that’s truly difficult. Got my fingers crossed for you

As for what’s happening in my life; well, things are surprisingly okay. Finals aren’t stressing me out, which is odd, as I have a tendency to panic in situations like this. I’m graduating high school, so on top of the usual exams, I’ve got the Matura (which is basically five state exams that I can’t get into any University in the world without), which I haven’t even begun to study for. And when that’s over in mid-June, I’ve got to sit down and take learning German very seriously. Otherwise it is no Univesity in Germany, and no future in my country. And, the only thing that’s really worrying me in this situation is that I’m too relaxed. It’s odd and frightening, more than the actual exams. 
But perhaps that’s got to do with my friend getting through all her chemotherapy sessions cancer-free. I’d spent too much time with her during this tough period, and that’s possibly what’s made me look at the world differently. As stressful, painful and worrisome as it has been, I am glad I lost sleep, concentration and time for studying over it. Besides being there for my friend, I’ve set my priorities straight as a plus.
So here I am, going though this forum with my Maths book in front of me. I keep convincing myself that the reason I’m not frantically studying, as I usually am, is because it’s only a revision of things I already know, and because I had another horrible fight with my mum minutes ago which I am yet to recover from. The truth is, I am disappointed and lonely and so tired, but oddly happy at the same time. Must be another mixed episode in my bipolar journal.

Ahhh Girl said
@ScrambledEggs Your written English is superb. Have you ever thought about attending a university in the U.S.?

Oh, I have, a great deal too. So many days spent daydreaming about sunny California. Unfortunately, that’s an option I can only dream to afford. When it comes to Germany, I’ve got a place to stay and an aunt to help me out, and I’ve well settled that I can make money over there on my own. A part time job and a guitar to drag on the streets is all I need to get through University. 

I used to enter all kinds of competitions so I could get a scholarship and go to the USA or the UK, and won a fair number of them too, but poor Macedonia doesn’t invest in people with no family nor political connections to the government. I guess I just have to make do. 

And thank you very much for the compliment Glad to know that what I write is at least understandable! 

Thanks Linde, for the words of encouragement and everything else.

I am happy I was there for her and helped out as much as I could, but it’s really her everyone should be proud of. She was really tough throughout the whole process. 
As for my mum, I don’t think we’ll ever work things out completely. We’re in a constant fight. That’s another way of life, I suppose.