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If you wanted to, you could try going out of the hospital and getting a signal from somewhere else, stealing Wi-Fi may be considered a crime but I don’t see anything wrong with it and I doubt other people would care if you borrowed some of their connection for an hour or so.

I’m back! Thankfully it didn’t take as long because we went earlier in the morning. 

I feel like s**t today, mainly because I feel like I wasted all of yesterday trying to get Ron Nasty some videos off FrostWire that I thought he might enjoy. I’m so pissed off that I could punch a hole in my wall. I’ve also been feeling lately like there’s someone who wants me to kill myself and is slowly driving me insane.

Things got even worse today, I broke my brand new bed frame and cut myself fairly badly and due to my OCD I got really pissed off when I couldn’t produce another cut, it’s weird but when something bad happens once, I often want it to happen again.

Ahhh Girl said
@Ron Nasty would be the first person to get pissed off if you let that person push you to suicide. His best friend committed suicide, and he will never get over it. So, calm yourself down about not getting him some videos.

I’m fine with getting him the videos, in fact I was planning on PM-ing him my Gmail password so he could view them without me risking getting banned for sharing videos that you are supposed to pay for. It’s more so the fact that it took so long and that once the videos finished downloading, I wasn’t able to use the computer for the rest of the day.

Ahhh Girl said
If you want to impress Ron Nasty and make him happy, tell that person who is putting all those things in your head to politely f**k off.

It’s not that easy, it’d be telling King George III to “go back to England” or telling Hitler to “stop killing these innocent people”. Some of these thoughts are from depressing memories, such as that time I spent in a corrupt behavior school, others are stuff like how life was great in the 2000’s or how I feel that I screwed up by throwing away my childhood.

Also, I get violent very easily so if I’m pissed off, I might punch walls or yell obscenities or if a certain person got me worked up, I might punch them in the face, so I’ve yelled stuff like get out of my f*****g life you no good piece of s**t and stuff like that to no avail.

Ahhh Girl said
Then go to a psychiatrist and get on some meds to even out your temperament. I know from personal experience that they work, and that makes Ron Nasty happy.

I tried meds, they didn’t work at all so I got rid of them, some people can have positive experiences to things other people have negative ones to. Also, I think taking medicine for mental health problems is stupid because how can prescription drugs make you feel better inside.

I must say, being on here can sure turn my day around, once I got on the forum I felt a lot better. As for the whole don’t want to get banned thing, I was referring to Gmail, not this site and I know Ron wouldn’t do that to me, I’m just worried that Google has robots who check for copyrighted material. Also, I bet he would like to read some of the messages I’ve sent to Dave of beatlesebooks, so there’s also that.

I feel particularly sad for no reason  Maybe because this stupid heatwave which has gone on forever is wracking my brain (Ringo reference ).

EDIT: Apparently, it’s going to be almost 35°C here tomorrow. Ugh! 

This last week hasn’t been much. I stayed home for most of it. On Friday I went to breakfast with that one girl that used to have a crush on years ago that I’ve mentioned before. The one that wanted a picture with me during the grad walk.

Saturday my parents and sister went out of town to go visit my sister’s friend who moved away last year. This left me home alone to take care of the dog and listen to Beatles records. I also watched some Arrested Development, went to the record store, and did some preparatory stuff for my mission.

Tomorrow I am going to be leaving on this thing called trek. It’s a thing for my church where we go out and reenact the Mormon pioneer’s trek across the plains on a greatly smaller scale. It’s actually quite fun. I went last year with a different stake, and this year I’m going with my stake.

@SgtPeppersBulldog said
I feel particularly sad for no reason  Maybe because this stupid heatwave which has gone on forever is wracking my brain (Ringo reference ).

EDIT: Apparently, it’s going to be almost 35°C here tomorrow. Ugh!   

If you want we can trade. It’s only 45°C(113°F) down here in the meadows.

@Dark Overlord said
Have fun, you will be missed.  

Thanks! I will!