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MrMoonlight said
I really want to record stuff but I just don’t have the right equipment. Decent microphones are outrageously expensive, and even then you have to pretty much soundproof the room (it costs that much just to buy the egg cartons), get some decent editing equipment, and just hope it works.
It’s triggering my anxiety knowing how much I have to do just so you can hear it. And even then, I don’t know where to begin. I was honestly on the verge of tears knowing how overwhelming everything is. How crap I am at guitar to be taken seriously, how bad I am at timing, how out-of-tune I am at singing, how I can’t record anything, and how I have no equipment to even play the songs I want to. I’ve got a camera but I don’t know how well it’ll record; I haven’t tried it. I used my computer’s mic and it’s shameful how bad the quality is with clipping and all that equalisation I have no idea how to change. But hey, at least I don’t have to do any noise removal (although it sounds just as terrible as it would using it).
I’ve been playing for two months. But I have nearly fifty songs scattered about and they’re begging on my shoulder.
The musicology isn’t so important. I’ve done well for two months of playing. I know I need to practice, but I feel like I’ve got everything wrong and I’m slow and I’m terrible and I’m muting some of the stings and it doesn’t sound right and it’s just so annoying. My mind is teeming with brilliant ideas that sound so good in my head but I can’t get anywhere near that level, and by the time I have, I’ll have forgotten the exact sound since it takes so long.And I’m still thinking that nobody’s going to see or care or share or notice me… I don’t want to do music as just a hobby. I want a life out of it. And with how bad I am currently, the prospect of that not happening is terrifying.
I just don’t want to fail with this. I have so many ideas, so many great sounds and ideas for covers and my own songs, but I just hate this anxiety. It’s my worst enemy and it’s the only thing holding me back. Whilst you can get over depression (and I have done for the most part – the past year was a blip and it’s nullified all other heartbreak to the point of mere annoyance), anxiety seems to be with people forever.
Alright, @MrMoonlight. I have heard your singing and I think you’ve got potential, definitely. I’m quite insecure about my voice – I’m not even brave enough to post any of my own covers. (Of which, only one I think is decent.) I record for the fun of it, though it would be great to be noticed, yeah? The thing is, Beatles songs are so great that it’s hard to feel confident about any cover. I’m not amazing at guitar either, but I’m improving through playing these songs, getting better at switching between chords and coming up with my own riffs and song fragments. I struggle more with lyric writing, coming up with a good melody, etc. It’s not that I have problems with words, I just don’t know what to write about.
I would enjoy a life in music too (I’d better post something soon then, eh? If I’m ever confident enough I will.) I use a laptop to record, and with Audacity’s Noise Removal, it comes out alright; not GOOD, but not that bad. I don’t really practice much guitar either, I mostly just noodle around. I know this post is all over the place, but it’s kind of stream-of-consciousness (hopefully) consolation. Anyway, a problem I have with my voice is sometimes when I sing along with a song like You Won’t See Me , and I sing the “knew what I was missing” part, though I feel I’m singing it right, my voice doesn’t sound right. This is probably because I’m singing along with Paul and that means I can’t possibly sound too good. I also have quite a poor low range, as you know, but I can feel it improving lately. Last thing: we are the same age. I worry about pretty much everything and sometimes become afraid of things that could never be. I’ve never been depressed, and I’m sorry you have been, but I do worry a LOT. By the time I post this, someone else will have probably already gotten to you, but oh well. Like others have said, feel free to PM me (take my signature literally. 
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On a side note, MAN do I use parentheses often!
School is still fast approaching and I’ve done nothing to prepare for it. I am easily distracted and my mind wanders all over the place, so… I hope this year goes well. I’m going to quite a nice school this year though, and I’m excited as well as worried.
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@MrMoonlight You will get better if you keep playing. There’s no way you won’t, you just have to play it all the time. And you can’t think of it as something you’re forcing yourself to do, or something your entire future relies on, you just have to enjoy playing the guitar.
As for recording, you don’t need to soundproof anything unless you’re in a really loud place. I’ve looked up tips for making good quality home recordings, and it said recording in a closet is good. If you have space in a closet maybe you could try that. The microphone I recommend is the Blue Snowball! Anna got it, I think Bulldog did, they like it, I love it, and it’s the cheapest you’ll get for a good mic, I’m sure I’ve given you a link sometime.
You just have to have fun with it! That’s the most important part.
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3 June 2014
Offline ^ @Mr. Kite Gah, I still haven’t got the Snowball. But I bet I’ll enjoy it if I ever DO buy it! 
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4 February 2014
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^ @Mr. Kite Gah, I still haven’t got the Snowball. But I bet I’ll enjoy it if I ever DO buy it!
Don’t know why I thought you did, but was right to be unsure!
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16 December 2013
Offline Linde said
Oh, and Amsterdam is a beautiful city, but I don’t live anywhere near. I actually live close to the borders of Germany. My city is a bit of a ghetto.
Good luck on your date, and I don’t think it really matters what you are doing, evrything can be fun with the person you want to spend time with. Let us know how it goes!
And it’s great that you live near Germany because right now I’m near Netherlands, and if I do move here we could even meet up!
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20 August 2013
Offline So many stories we all are waiting for within the next few days:
@Linde’s second date
@Ron Nasty’s return from heart surgery
@Beatleva’s report on her dad’s surgery
@meanmistermustard’s foot doctor report
@ScrambledEggs’s reunion with her friend
The Days of our *BB Forum* Lives
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2.23pm
5 May 2014
Offline @MrMoonlight No one is good after two months! You have the potential, but you just need to work at it a little. Hell, some people play for a lifetime and never get good. Your not going to be making a career out of it in the immediate future, so there’s plenty of time to improve. Remember to take pride in what you have already accomplished, because it’s impressive
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Linde said
Oh, and Amsterdam is a beautiful city, but I don’t live anywhere near. I actually live close to the borders of Germany. My city is a bit of a ghetto.
Good luck on your date, and I don’t think it really matters what you are doing, evrything can be fun with the person you want to spend time with. Let us know how it goes!
And it’s great that you live near Germany because right now I’m near Netherlands, and if I do move here we could even meet up!
That would be cool! We could definitely do that.
Okay, the second date:
First we went to his appartment, which he shares with a girl and her boyfriend who moved in for a while. Met them both, very friendly people. Very strict Christians. We had lunch and he showed me his LPs. He had a very old Sgt Pepper LP. Like, really from 1967. I’ve only seen newer pressings and remasters, so that was cool. Also had the Red Album . I was impressed with his collection, he had so much good stuff. So we chatted a bit about music, and then we went to the tennis court, which belongs to the University. Obviously it’s closed now, but they left the fence open. Yay. Obviously I sucked, since I hadn’t played tennis in 10 years, so he taught me some basic stuff. It was fun but way too hot outside, so we decided to cycle to town (yes, cycle, I could borrow his flatmate’s bicycle) and get an ice cream. After that we walked through town and just chatted, and then sat somewhere and had something to drink. After that we didn’t really know what to do, and it was only 3.30 pm. He invited me back to the appartment, so off we went. I could choose an LP to listen to and I chose the Red Album . We sat down and chatted a bit more. At one point he said very close to me, and I could tell he wanted to kiss me, but he didn’t. Would’ve been a weird moment, Yellow Submarine was playing. Not exactly romantic, is it? Then I had to go, we went to the trainstation and he waited with me. He put his arm around my shoulder and randomly hugged me. I thought he hugged me because the train was coming, so I said ”bye”. He looked a bit confused and said ”eh..okay..bye?” and then I realized the train wasn’t really coming and he said he just felt like hugging me. I felt a bit blonde at that moment. Then the train did arrive and we hugged, looked at each other and kissed. I felt like I was 14 again or something. It was nothing like the last time I kissed someone, but it felt like I was 15 and getting my first kiss. It was a bit weird, I don’t know. He also told me somewhere that my eyes were beautiful and that I have a pretty smile. That’s always nice to hear of course. I never know how to react to those things. Ah well, had a great time.
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5 May 2014
Offline @Linde whenever I notice you’ve posted about your dates, I stop reading, go make myself a cup of tea and a big bowl of popcorn, come back, and read the whole post a few times over. So keep ’em coming 
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20 August 2013
Offline I know I’m not the only one on here hoping there is a date 3 in the offing, @Linde.
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Offline I’ve been largely absent lately, so I feel that an update is in order.
I went to a Soundgarden/Nine Inch Nails concert about a week ago with my dad. I had a really fun time. Our seats weren’t the best in the house, but they were far from the worst. All the pictures turned out horrible, unfortunately. I was able to find a great-quality bootleg of the show online within two days of the show itself.
Oneohtrix Point Never (the opening act, who sucked, honestly) :
Soundgarden:
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I wish that these pictures were better, because the concert visuals (especially during the Nine Inch Nails portion) were really cool and the pictures don’t do it justice.
Yesterday , I went to a Chicago White Sox (baseball) game with my dad and sisters. They were the best seats that I’ve ever had at a baseball game. I was only seven rows away from the field and not far from home plate. Attendance at the game was more than 27,000 people. The Sox lost 6-8, unfortunately, but it was still a good time. Also, since we were so close to home plate, the pictures turned out great. Here are a few.
^ That’s how close we were to the field.
^ Me and my dad.
^ My dad and my younger sister.
^ Me and my older sister.
^ Me at the game.
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I’ve been to that ballpark. Pleasant memories. Thanks for posting the pictures.
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11 November 2010
Offline Oh, I should also note that they played a rather long snippet of the Beatles version of Twist And Shout at the ball game.
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14 April 2010
Offline @Linde – very happy for you. You seem to have found someone with whom you have a lot in common. What a great start.
@Necko – great pics! Looks like your family had a great time at the game – awesome seats.
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21 November 2012
Offline Mimi said
@Linde whenever I notice you’ve posted about your dates, I stop reading, go make myself a cup of tea and a big bowl of popcorn, come back, and read the whole post a few times over. So keep ’em coming
Haha thanks. I always read it over when I’m done typing and I go like ”woah Jesus, I just wrote a complete book..oh well, tough s**t. Not gonna delete it” I can’t write it in short for some reason.
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5 May 2014
Offline My mother has suffered from depression most of her life, and for the last 20 years she has been on medication that has kept it under control. About 2 months ago, she decided to get off the medication. With out the meds, she’s a totally different person. It’s made worse by the fact that her addressing the depression is at a weird time for our family. Next year, I’m going to a different school. Where I live, there are two towns right next to each other, Bozeman and Belgrade. I live in the school district of Belgrade, but it has a terrible school system, so my family is renting a cheap house in Bozeman so I can use the address to get into Bozeman high school. We live a ways out of town on a farm. The farm is my mom’s dream, not my dad’s, and my dad is really excited about having the rental so he can use it as a studio. That’s the back story
I think my mother is scared that she’s going to be abandoned out here. I think she thinks that having the rental is giving my dad and I an excuse to just leave her on the farm. We wouldn’t do that obviously, but I know she thinks about it. Without the meds, she has an even harder time hiding how she feels. The biggest problem for me is that she isn’t at all proud of my music. It’s not just that, but she’s annoyed about me playing guitar all the time. She can see no artistic value to music, and although she’s married to a professional musician, she still regards it as a waste of time. I don’t need constant reassurance that I sound okay, but when she comes in the house and I’m playing it annoys her, and that’s not exactly easy for me to live with. She is worried that I’m losing my interest in horses (that’s my other hobby that will probably turn into my career in the next few years) I’m not losing interest at all, I’m just equally interested in music. She’s worried that if I lose interest in horses, she won’t have that connection with me (she had horses when she was a kid, and it seems like the one thing we have in common anymore) The more I continue to play guitar, the more she thinks she is losing me or whatever.
I can tell she thinks that me growing up is some sort of loss. I know that most parents feel that way, but she doesn’t seem to take pride in what I have accomplished with becoming older.
She loses her temper a lot as well. The other day I accidentally left my amp in the living room, and she got angry about it.
I’m So Tired of walking on eggshells in my own home. I don’t want to have to hide the fact that I’m a guitarist from her, which is what I generally do to keep the peace. I’m honestly afraid to let her catch me practicing scales. I don’t know why she can’t appreciate any talent I have in music, but it only seems to irritate her.
To be fair, this is probably painting too harsh a picture of her. She’s been a great mom generally, but lately it hasn’t been all that lively around the house to say the least. I’m lucky I have my dad, who I can talk about this with, but he’s trying to work out his own problems with her as it is. He can confirm that it’s her who needs to change the way she feels about my pursuit in music, not me, which is a big comfort. I’m worried about how this next school year will be for her. I can’t seem to do anything that brings her happiness right now, and it makes me blame myself when I know I shouldn’t.
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14 April 2010
Offline Mimi – I Googled “Music and Horses” and found this site. http://www.mikebeck.com/index/
Perhaps if you played or even composed some songs about horses, it could lead to some common ground upon which you could strengthen the relationship between you and your mom. Do you think she would get excited about helping you write a song about horses? Maybe you could find some inspiration from that site.
Wishing you all the luck in the world with this delicate situation.
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5 May 2014
Offline Zig said
Mimi – I Googled “Music and Horses” and found this site. http://www.mikebeck.com/index/Perhaps if you played or even composed some songs about horses, it could lead to some common ground upon which you could strengthen the relationship between you and your mom. Do you think she would get excited about helping you write a song about horses? Maybe you could find some inspiration from that site.
Wishing you all the luck in the world with this delicate situation.
I doubt she would be interested in helping me compose any music, but thanks for that link. I think I’ve heard his name before. Very cool guy.
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8 April 2014
Offline I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through such a troubled time.
I would follow Zig’s advice.
I hope that things will improve for you and your mother. Best of luck!
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Offline I hope everything works out on @Mimi, sounds like a horrible situation to be in at the minute. Not that it helps but all of us here are wishing you the best.
And i know this might seem a little wrongly placed but i cant leave a conversation about horses and music without posting the below. I mean no offence its just that its so damn brilliant.
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