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Thank you all so much for the good wishes. I called my friend yesterday to check on her, she said she expects to be out of the hospital in a little less than two weeks. @Linde, I haven’t seen her because she’s back at home in Macedonia, and that’s one of the main guilt-trips I’ve been going on recently. I fly back home on Thursday night, so I will see her first thing on Friday. 

To live here in Germany would really be a dream coming true, and also a good life-solver. I don’t think there’s much future for anyone in Macedonia. And having spent enough time in Germany and the rest of my life in Macedonia, I can almost say that the countries could be polar opposites. Perhaps it’s not really patriotic of me – of course, I do love my home – but I don’t want to raise a family one day in the place where I grew up. My childhood borders with hell at many points. Even now, I feel like living in some sort of prison because I can’t be myself, I can’t do what I want nor like what I like, I can’t really go anywhere without having whole Macedonia watching over and judging. I call my neighbours ‘Google’ because they know everything about me – probably even the amount of breaths I take a day. 

Here, it’s like I can finally experience life for real. For example, I got a job here without even looking for one. @meanmistermustard, I play gigs almost every day and in two days I make as much money as my mum makes a month. And through my music, I have met more people than I can count. And it’s all sorts of people who like all kinds of things. So much different from the monotonous Macedonians who are all the same. Sometimes, random people pass by (because I play outside in the garden of the restaurant) and yell things like “Beatles forever!” or “Play another Beatles song!”. And the other day I had a most wonderful ‘adventure’. I drove my bike to this park that’s a little far away, just so I could be alone with my thoughts for a while, maybe even cry a little, but then I saw these three guys with guitars and they were playing random tunes. So I decided I had nothing to lose if I went to talk to them, so I did and with my poor, limited German asked if I could sit there and listen. And so they played and talked to me, and then I realised that they were just making songs up along the way, and I thought “Why shouldn’t I give it a try?”. I did it. They loved it. We spent maybe two hours just playing random chords and adding lyrics to them, and people who sat around applauded and asked for more. Here’s the only thing I thought to record, and it is probably one of the worse tunes we came up with: https://soundcloud.com/maria-b…..-up-song 
The quality is horrid and my voice sounds alien, I know, but it’s still a way to share the moment, I suppose. One of the guys is playing the ukulele. Other than playing music, we talked about our problems and got along really well. How can I not feel at home here? In my town in Macedonia we don’t even have a park and meeting random people is impossible because a) we all know each other already, and b) even if some random people came along and I went to talk to them, the whole town would think I’m crazy and will ignore me for a long period of time. I met up with one of these guys two days ago again, who is actually homeless, but there’s no way anyone could tell because he actually has a good job and looks really good and is probably the smartest person I have ever met. I’ll talk to my ‘boss’ today if she’d let him join my gig tomorrow. 

And for the first time since I was a Little Child , I think I could maybe make some sort of music career. Of course this is not a dream I can pursue, really, but having found people I can create music with is incredible.  

Yesterday I went on a date in Dortmund which is where the guy I’m dating lives, and it was a wonderful day. He waited for me at the train station with a dozen roses. I got to play the piano – they actually have random pianos around the city with “Spiel much (play me)” written on them! We went to a park and a small concert with some band from London – I actually talked to the lead singer who for some reason thought I was also from London (the accent, he said, but I’m sure that’s a lie) – and then the DJ played some remix of “Twist And Shout “. No matter how much  I hate remixed music, it was still John’s voice and it was still the Beatles, all enough to make my day. We ate some delicious food and called it a day after eight hours. 

And dear God , it feels good to share bits of my life. I haven’t done this for years. Thank you dear Beatles-biblers for the continued following, and the whole cult thingy – but actually, thank you for being my friends. I honestly can’t wait to have some more time to sit down and read what’s been happening in your lives and what’s been happening on this forum.

Edit: Oh, and Linde, I went to Amsterdam last year and it is deffinitely the most incredible city I have ever seen. Water + a billion bikes = enough to make a city perfect.