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What is the problem with not Germany? And what would you like to do as a profession?
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@ScrambledEggs , your post breaks my heart. I hope you can find satisfying work for your life. I also hope you can find comfort in the Beatles and other non-work aspects of your life in the years to come. I wish I knew more to say.
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Offline @Ahhh Girl, thank you for being so kind.
@Starr Shine?, I’d honestly just go into any prospective university. I’ve always been indecisive between architecture in engineering. So, the plan was for me to study architecture in Germany, where I can actually get a job afterwards. It is very likely that Macedonia won’t even exist as a country after a decade or so. People here excel in various fields and have spent years and years in university, only to sit unemployed until they find a person involved in politics to help them out.
I can’t go to Germany because I have no money to get out of here, and my parents don’t want to help me.
After a sleepless night, I decided I won’t give up, no matter how little support I might get. I’ll apply to all the exchange student programs next year and hopefully get out of here. I just hope I won’t get too depressed to function and will find a way to make money.
I’m sorry for putting this up here; I didn’t want to complain. I had no one else to talk to.
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Offline Don’t ever feel sorry for posting stuff like that @ScrambledEggs.
The forum should always be a place where folk can post freely and have a space to unload their minds and thoughts.
Don’t let finance stop you from being what you want to be in life so yes explore every option and see what comes of it, you might have to work harder and push a little more in getting there. Good luck with your studies and the future.
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Offline @ScrambledEggs I went through a similar situation where I was close to finishing school and found myself with no financial support. But don’t give up, you’ve come too far. I hope you’re able to get scholarships or some other kind of financial aid to realize your dreams.
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Offline Well, I ended up having to go to hospital last night. I’m off my tablets and I’m more anxious than I’ve ever been about everything, especially you-know-who.
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Well, I ended up having to go to hospital last night. I’m off my tablets and I’m more anxious than I’ve ever been about everything, especially you-know-who.
@MrMoonlight, you can make it. I know you can. The gif is the force.
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Well, I just found out that all these years I spent studying, working my ass off for a better future are – guess what!? – wasted! Yes, it was all in vain, it turns out. A poor girl from a small country like me can’t get into a proper university. What in the world possessed me to believe that I actually had a chance, anyway? I was supposed to go to Germany. While everyone was having a childhood and had fun during their teenage years, I was stuck at home, studying, studying and studying. And today, I FINALLY found out, that my parents have been lying to me for I don’t even know how many years, and that they only faked their encouragement for my further education. I suppose investing in their bipolar child would have been in vain – I don’t even know why I couldn’t see that until now.
What’s left for me now? I guess I’ll just apply to an engineering university here and continue to study 24/7 for another half decade. And then, I can sit on my ass comfortably knowing that I’ll rot to death, unable to find a job – just like everyone else over here nowadays. All I have to worry about right now is: passing the state exams, getting accepted into university and figure out how to live in an apartment I will never be able to afford. It doesn’t matter that an excellent student like me would have easily been accepted in Germany where I could have made my own money and got through my studies easily. It doesn’t matter that I’ve been stuck at home, learning German among a million other things, just for the occasion. Nothing matters, really. What matters is, that my parents don’t feel like giving me a chance in life. That’s that.
Wow @ScrambledEggs That seems absolutely terrible, I really don’t know what to say. I can’t really say that I know how you feel, because I’m only 13… But I can still imagine it would be absolutely awful. Just no words for it…
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Don’t let finance stop you from being what you want to be in life so yes explore every option and see what comes of it, you might have to work harder and push a little more in getting there.
I completely agree, money should not stop you from following your dreams. Perhaps you could do a kind of fundraising, maybe on the internet or something… Sorry I don’t know much about these things.
I wish you the best of luck and really hope you succeed to fulfill your dreams!
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Offline MrMoonlight said
Well, I ended up having to go to hospital last night. I’m off my tablets and I’m more anxious than I’ve ever been about everything, especially you-know-who.
I really hope you feel better. My situation is kind of mellowing and I’m becoming decidedly happier.
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MrMoonlight said
Well, I ended up having to go to hospital last night. I’m off my tablets and I’m more anxious than I’ve ever been about everything, especially you-know-who.I really hope you feel better. My situation is kind of mellowing and I’m becoming decidedly happier.
Thank you. I wish the very best for you, whatever the conclusion; for me, I won’t be happy unless I finally feel successful, which, I’m afraid, probably won’t happen. Everyone tells me to move on in the nicest way possible, but when you build your entire world around someone, what do you do when it’s gone? I’m scared, honestly. I don’t know what to do because nothing anyone says (apart from the negative things) is getting through to me, no matter how drawn-out or nicely-spoken things are. Everything, I’m afraid, is wrong. It’s really nice everyone’s supportive, but the only thing that makes me happy is the hope for something, which quite clearly, will never be.
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Hope. What do you wanna do when you grow up?
Oh, also, I should point out that I’ve erased her first and middle names (including variations because I’m triggered a lot, hence why I refuse to listen past Yesterday on Help !) entirely from the internet, thanks to a Chrome extension, to avoid potential panic attacks. I’ve replaced them with my favourite Beatles (and cover) song character names.
Case and point.
Also, I don’t really know what I want to do. It’s tough, because I have no idea who I am anymore.
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1 November 2013
Offline If you’re not believing the good stuff, why not switch over and not believe the bad stuff? I know that’s probably really hard.
As an aside, what extension is that? Seems cool.
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2 April 2014
Offline I believe the bad stuff because it’s the true stuff. I can’t face having another breakdown so I lie to myself. I take my worries out on others, but they can’t help.
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Offline MrMoonlight said
Annadog40 said
Oh, also, I should point out that I’ve erased her first and middle names (including variations because I’m triggered a lot, hence why I refuse to listen past Yesterday on Help !) entirely from the internet, thanks to a Chrome extension, to avoid potential panic attacks. I’ve replaced them with my favourite Beatles (and cover) song character names.
Case and point.
Also, I don’t really know what I want to do. It’s tough, because I have no idea who I am anymore.
wow I am Clarabelladog40 
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Offline I guess Anna went with him and left us Clarabella.
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Offline Hang on. There is a chrome extension that always someone to alter what others see on the net?
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Offline meanmistermustard said
Hang on. There is a chrome extension that always someone to alter what others see on the net?
No, it alters what you see.
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Offline I didn’t alter Anna’s name via a chrome extension but i’m seeing the alteration (Clarabelladog40). So either i’m seeing the result of the change by Mr Moonlight or Anna has changed her name to line-up with the change by Mr. Moonlight.
I feel like i’m in some weird Avengers (Peel, Steed not Superhero’s) world designed for my mind to melt.
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